Saturday, October 15, 2011

Top of the morning to you.

I've already been up for several hours with this sweet boy.  He can't.  Quit.  Coughing.  All the cough medicine, breathing treatments, allergy meds and humidifiers in the western hemisphere won't slow this cough down. 
It's laughable how naive I was as a new mother.  I really believed that if I could just get through those first couple of months, just get this little infant to sleep through the night, then I could go back to my normal sleeping patters and all would be right with the world.

The joke is on me.  I don't want to be a Debbie Downer, but all you new or soon-to-be mommas out there I'm just going to shoot straight with you:  You will never sleep again.  I'll give you a moment to let that sink in, and if you are like me you may have to go ahead and have a good cry about it.  The truth is sometimes difficult to accept.

I have had a rough month.  Well, maybe I should just go ahead and say a rough fall.  Sometimes life can just be a bit overwhelming.  Nothing earth shattering has happened.  I am still blessed beyond anything I deserve.  But nonetheless it has been rough and I have felt stressed and sad and exhausted.

Thankfully, though, I have learned a tough but needed lesson this fall and this is it:  It is possible to be content amongst chaos, to have peace in the valley.  It's not easy, and I don't have that concept mastered - I'm not even close.  But it is possible, and that gives me a little bit more strength and a whole lot more hope.


babyblueeyed girl said...

summer im sorry you have been having a rough fall and sorry bode is sick i will be praying for you all, im glad you have had peace and you know your still blessed let me know if i can do anything at all
love you so much

Alyssa said...

Love your post this morning. And except for the fact that you have one with an never-ending cough, I ditto what you have said. And I feel content too. Of course I'd rather it be sunshine and rainbows for me, but I can be content in the valley too. Hugs.

emma said...

almost never comment, but I'm a preacher's wife in the coc so I feel like we are sisters of sorts....praying that God leads you out of the valley soon and gives you days so good, you forget the bad ones!

Wa Wa Waughs said...

Motherhood is exhausting! But also the biggest blessing! Give yourself some time out every once in a while and keep the faith! Love you!

Aubrie said...

No kidding. To all of it: mothering part, rough part, etc, etc. I know how our fall has been rough in different ways, but sheesh. Enough!
I have been kicking myself for potty training Henson now that he gets up at night to go. Why did I go that to myself!
Sending your little cough machine over to play with my too-well-trained pee-er helps though. :)

debra said...

I don't know if you've tried this, but something that's always worked for me is Vicks VapoRub (especially on the feet - I know that sounds weird, but you put it on your feet, put socks on so you don't get it all over everything, and it works... something to do with feet absorbing it really well?) Maybe it'll work even better if you put it on both his chest (like most people do) and on his feet. Not sure, but it's worth a try.

D's Mom said...

I am sorry Bode is sick! It's hard to see your baby not feeling good and especially hard when it's causing lack of sleep.
Thanks for the reminder that we can have peace even in the rough times.

Kelly T said...

Praise God!! It is NOT easy but it IS possible - all to God's glory!! Sent up a prayer for you just now - thanks for sharing with blog world and encouraging other mommies.